For the people who are interested in my story, I share my personal testimony that reflects the glory of God in my life and what I believe to be the truth about Yeshua Hamashiach, Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior.
I went on a spiritual search after getting released from the army. I went, as many Israelis do, to explore the world and took a trip to India. As a young man, I experimented with light drugs and hallucinogens such as LSD. When I returned home, I had a breakdown as a result of strong culture shock. The freedom I experienced in India did not match with the Israeli daily life and because of the extreme change I became unbalanced. I was hospitalized in a mental institution and experienced great depression.
When I was released, I couldn’t cope with regular life and started to slide back into drug abuse. I met a man who befriended me and told me about his belief in Yeshua. As a Jewish person, I knew we are supposed to fullfill the law of Moses but as a secular I didn’t give it too much attention in my life. As he was speaking about forgiveness of sin, I realized that this is what was lacking in my life. From a Godly acceptance and to self acceptance, I received faith in the Lord and started to read the New Testament. There I found encouragement and revelation of who Jesus Christ really is.
I had a good begining but after a while I kept on using drugs and alcohol. It was a dual game. On one hand, I received the full forgiveness of my sin. On the other hand I didn’t repent from my sin and kept on a sinful lifestyle. The grace was enormous, but the sin did what sin does and pulled me down. This led to some more crises and hospitalizations. At this time my mom died of cancer and I was struggling with great depression. My mental health was getting worse and I was delusional. From the northern city of Haifa i went to Jerusalem, believing I was a reincarnation of Biblical Isaac and an angel on earth. It was a religious delusion known as ‘Jerusalem Syndrome’. At this time I was homeless for two and a half years in the streets of Jerusalem. I was abusing great amounts of drugs and alcohol until I was arrested. After two and a half months in jail I was vindicated by the grace of God. Afterwards I spent another period in the psychiatric hospital. I was released from jail totally broken and just couldn’t bear living in the streets anymore.
I went to the Jerusalem welfare services and received a bed in a shelter with mostly narcotic abusers. It was a very dark time for me. I came back into relation with my father and he rented a room for me. A man who knew me from my homeless days convinced me to come to a Messianic congregation. I started to gain my sanity back. I eventually was sent to rehabilitation in the beautiful mountains of Tuscany, Italy. It was there that I experienced the baptism in the Holy Spirit which was the great light of God coming into my heart in one instance. Immediately I was released from any need of drugs and alcohol until even today! After half a year there I came back to Israel to live in Jerusalem and completed a year in Bible school. Later I worked in several jobs and God started to restore me step by step. It was a big difference walking again in the love of God in Yeshua Hamashiach, but this time not in sin. The amazing thing is that after I thought I did the unforgiven, God accepted me with overwhelming love for a prodigal son like me. God turned my life from ashes into a garden of miracles and joy. He connected me with a wonderful woman who helped me to restore my life and we adopted each other as a mother and son.
God restored my brain my body and most of all my heart. My emotions and mental health were slowly but surely gained back. In this time I started to receive worship songs through the Holy Spirit. I started to hear angels sing in my dreams and was able to record the songs afterwards. I picked up the guitar and started to play again for the first time in years. It caused a major transformation in my life. Now I know that worship does open the gates of heaven.
I have just completed a one year program in graphic design and will soon be starting a second year of studies in computer programming. Through all this I know that my ability to help myself is gone and I give all the glory to the Lord. It is by his grace that I was resurrected from death to life.
I can encourage every troubled soul that God is available to you because Jesus Christ died and was risen for you. He has payed the price for every sin committed and yet to be committed. He is our lover and savior. Through Him everything was created. When people who know me from my downfall see me today they can hardly believe how this mentally destroyed man was risen from his soulish death to abundant life. Glory be to God. Hallelujah!
I thank the Lord for my earthly father who reconciled with me and has helped me in this process. I appreciate his faithfullness and forgiveness as he was willing to do whatever was needed to allow this miracle to happen. Be the blessing of God on him, as well as the many others who invested time, energy, money and love to help this rath to stand up again.
In conclusion, At one point I left everything behind me. Yeshua promised in Mark 10:29-30: Truly I tell you,” Jesus replied, “no one who has left home or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or fields for me and the gospel will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age: homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and fields—along with persecutions—and in the age to come eternal life.